Friday, September 25, 2009

sizeof (life) = courage;

Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one’s courage.” – Anais Nin

Saturday, September 5, 2009

She...

When I joined at my new work (the current work), my office/desk used to be on a different floor. This floor is of SQA folks, where I found everyone to be very friendly, talking around, joking around. A lively place and I being new bee to the company and coming from a start up loved this stress free work place. I also made most of my friends in this company during those initial days. There were few friends, with who I used go for lunch/coffee outs, chit-chat when ever we bump into each other discussing about many things not really related to the work, complimenting each other etc.

After few months of this stress free work phase, I had to move out of this floor. As soon as I moved out of this place the reality of new work struck me! So far I was sitting away from my team members and my manager! due to lack of space in that floor. With that “new joinee” tag I was enjoying my time learning and getting to know this new domain! Once I moved to this floor, everything changed, my manager was sitting just in front of me, all teammates around and I was assigned many defects to debug and fix them! I also would see all my team members work very hard to make those dead ends meet. The actual learning had just begun. Looks like at that very same time this recession bug was hitting everyone and work pressure knew no boundaries. With all these things in place I hardly visited the floor I joined as new bee and met those people only during some all handles or company bashes/celebrations.

Today while running around the labs, I happen to bump into one of my first floor co-workers. It was nice seeing her after a long time. We exchanged usual hellos and noticed that she seemed very pale and dull. There was no charm on her face which I was familiar with. Then I thought to myself that she must be real busy with work and due to that stress she looks like. However still casually I asked her “how is every thing other than work?” I heard her answer but that left me in a utter shock and I could not talk anything further, I thought I heard some thing wrong and I just blinked and asked her “sorry to hear that what happened?“ She said “he had brain cancer which was not diagnosed and I lost him on Jan 1st! “ She told me how she lost her husband on January 1st, when whole world was celebrating a New Year. By now she has learned how to be composed and not break down while talking, however my eyes were misty. While talking I also learned that she was married for 10 years now and they did not have kids. She was married at very young age and she almost grew up with him here in USA. She was telling “I don’t know what to do next and I’m still trying to cope with the loss, which is irreplaceable, those memories haunt me…” I spoke to her for 10 more minutes, came back and sat at my desk, but her words continued to haunt me. May God give her the strength to cope up with her loss and time heal her all wounds. A person who lost a life died once, but the one close to them die everyday... till those memories fade away....may his soul rest in peace...