Buddhu!

see... buddhu is so smart!!!!! :)
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Merry Holidays... Merry Christmas...

Today, my first day of "Happy Holidays"!! Yes I have 13 days of off from work and pressure !?D! Starting today...ooops! Already a day is gone :( Initially I was not sure if I will be getting this off, but when spoke to my manager y'day he asked me to take off and come charged for new challenges next year!! I guess this was the first time I spoke to him with a wide smile on my face... an involuntary smile of happiness and joy was on my face and excitement in my heart, when I heard him telling this! Though I did not have any major plans for this off, the very thought of not having to work for whole of almost 2 weeks made me give him a big smile! A bonus vacation… just after a month of my India trip, what else one can ask for?

As usual to start of the holidays... did not get up early in the morning, though I was up by 8, but whiled away time sleeping just like that in half sleep and half awake state! By 10, I started hearing noise from my stomach and at last hunger won over laziness and got up to realize that there is nothing readily available to eat! No fruit, no bread, and no cereal everything has gotten over. Luckily found a cup of Yoplait, a strawberry flavored yogurt! Morning does any one would like to eat that? No way... though I ate 2-3 spoons of it to re-fuel myself and stopped to explore the kitchen for some thing which could become my quick breakfast! nothing other than "poha" caught my eyes... saw there was just one potato left, and fresh curry leaves, green chilies, onions, pea nuts.... all the required ingredients to make a perfect aloo-poha... yummy it was ready in less than 15 mins and it was full of tummy!!

Then now any one is wondering how am I back to blogging after a long long gap? The very first reason is that... I had stopped using my desktop, which always sat in my bed-room and started using lap top all the time sitting in living room! I guess sitting in living room never gave the privacy to my thoughts when ever they tried come out...and other reason being I’m not spending time with myself...I’m on the run all the time! Today first thing I did was, get a table and chair back into my bed room, have laptop installed onto this table and got back the feeling of using the desk top!! No not really :) its just sitting in the room is what that gives me all the clarity to thoughts... and hence is this post today! And that’s how my afternoon went off ... setting my table and tiding up the room!

Then came evening, watched Gajani as planned, first day's show not first show though! And a dinner at friends place and bit of chit-chat and then thought of heading back home! It was almost around 11:30 did not realize how time just flew... but some how when I stepped out of the house, my sleep had gone! There were rain drops on my face and eyes and this cold breeze of Dec pushed my drowsiness to back seat and brought myriad thoughts to front seat! As I buckled my seat belt, turned on heater and started the car towards home... road was pretty much deserted... just one or two cars on the road hear and there and well decorated and brightly lit historic El-Camino Real in its majestic form...as I started driving, started enjoying the drive and did not feel like going home... just continued without making a right turn for my home! Crossed Mary then realized that its Marry Christmas tomorrow... and today is Xmas eve... no wonder! Everyone must be at home with their family and friends and is the reason for these empty road and drive. I crossed couple of roads ahead and then reached Castro of mountain view, but this drive was not enough for me and did not feel like taking a U turn... again went ahead for few more miles...it felt very nice, calm, quiet and serene... a feeling not wanting anything and a feeling of contentness... by then realized its already crossed 12 and a baby Jesus is already born...somewhere... "Happy Birthday to you Jesus" I whispered to myself... and at last took a U-turn, heading back home. By the time I parked car it was 12:40 AM. I got down from the car and walked towards home... there were no drops on my face...there was no rain... a cold wind was blowing and trees were dancing to the choreography of the breeze flowing between them...

Watz there in a name?!?

The sweetest thing to ones own ear is their name!
When ever I heard people's name, invariably I compared to mine! And always felt my name is inferior to others in many ways! First thing it’s as old as India! Associated with India and Indian history and politics! And during those early years of India, this name seems to be pretty popular! there are many great (:D) women whose name I share with, take it first women prime minister of the world or first test tube baby's creator in India, this name is/was found in every field.

This name means goddess of wealth, prosperity and wife of sustainer The Vishnu.
She is supposed to be very beautiful, her face is as pleasant as lotus and she bestows prosperity on all those who believes and worships her! If you take a shortened version of this name, "Indu" that means full moon! Also means today in Kannada!

So now back, so I always felt my name is old fashioned, represent that grandma's era blah blah and all! When some one asked my name a pinch of inferiority was always there in me. I wished to have a sweetest, melodiest, prettiest and coolest name :) and I envied those who have such a beautiful names to tag on to their personality. I felt how lucky they are to have that name.

Today I and one of new friend (my lunch friend!) happen to meet in the rest room. As we were discussing about some “things”, there came one more girl. As usual we smiled at each other and extended the same topic to her as well, and complimented her hair! Then she was telling us how hard it has become for her to manage and how she is loosing her hair due to the stress at work! Etc (i was smiling and imagining her to be at my previous work and imagined what would have happened to her!!). I could see that, she is indeed very stressed and exhausted, remembered my days few months back and felt sorry for her :( and just before leaving she said, "I like your name" hmmm! I thought she is telling it to other friend, she has very beautiful name! On our first lunch itself we had spoken in length about meaning of her name and about that spelling mistake in my name! But as she continued talking I realized that she is indeed telling it to me!! Hmm! that was the first time some one was complementing my full name!! I was pleasantly surprised! I was so surprised that I did not even thank her for the compliments! Felt Wow! Hmmm! I though not bad! There are people who like my name too hmmm! No need to say that, she made my day :) and then after that, I started pondering about my name! Thought about its meaning, though I knew it long back what it means etc but never realized how good or bad it is. I always looked this name in prejudice! And associated with that grandma's era! But now after that incident and that pondering I started to like it and told it myself!! And indeed I felt it to be sweet and good :)

I wonder how many times we take everything we have for granted! We won't realize unless, until some one comes and tells us the meaning of it...

Missing myself...

It has been long since I wrote anything... long since I paused myself and given a break to see where I’m heading to... I’m feeling blank! Don't know what I’m feeling, neither good nor bad its no feeling state... neither do I understand or nor do I don't understand... perhaps I know what it is... perhaps I don't know...

Suddenly for no reason, today I remembering those days, when I used to be in office late in the evenings or during weekends...doing nothing, just reading some news articles here and there, sipping a cup of coffee, watching the cars on the road and those trees and their full life cycle... through that window close to my cubicle and be with myself... just to give all the space and time of the world to myself and get a clarity of thoughts... that used to be very soothing, that used to give me immense feeling of contentness... Today suddenly no not suddenly it’s over a period of time lots of thoughts are wandering around and realized that it has been long since I’m with myself, my myraid mind is missing me and want to get back to her...and yes I’m going to office...!

Beauty, bathe and beyond!

Let me start with a question. Which is the place in your home, where you feel, yourself? Where one spends their time with out any interruption, pretention or any tension! Where one can think of anything and everything, where one gets a quality time to retrospect, think, plan and even sing and dance! Where one could spend time rehearsing calls, talks, and acts and also makes all kind of faces and sees themselves and laugh at it! During blue days one could lock inside and cry heart out! And come out smiling! With all powder shimmered on the face and eyes! One is free of all kinds of poses, perhaps could learn to pose instead! Hmm! What is this place?? Voila! Did I hear? Yes, yes it is our own bathroom! A place where you are all alone, yet with all and whole of yourself. Yes this is one place I love, other than my room itself! Where I find peace and ease with myself, where I think that, I think and keep thinking and get late everywhere :) you see great mind thinks alike, where do you think Archimedes’s the great Eureka coming from?? The very same bathroom :)

Okie now enough of it, let me get to the point, what is this all about? It’s all about beauty, bathe and beyond! It’s about fantasy! Its about that tiny room in a corner of a house we live in, whose role does not stop grooming one physically but also expands beyond... however here it's not about your beauty but its beauty of bathroom itself :) Its all about a dream bathroom!! [Before going further, my next question! How many have this kinda dream bathroom fantasy? I know there are lot of them, okie at least few of them I know of].

Recently one of my friends was visiting me; she stayed with me for couple of days. One day she complimented me for some thing, very few people would ever think of! And that was my bathroom :D When she came out of it, with a big smile she told me that she likes my bathroom soo much that she did not feel like coming out of it! She told me that she likes that mild and sweet fragrance coming out of that freshener and nicely arranged things on that stab etc (which is a mess most of the time :)). And she told me that she did not feel like coming out :) Hmmm! That was nice of her to complement! However I was taken aback! First reason being, she shared the similar kind of interest as mine! Normally we all try to keep it clean and neat, but there are only few people I came across who are passionate about their bathrooms :D and I when she felt the same way as mine, it felt really nice. Second reason being, the current bathroom is not even 10% close to the one I want it to be. Right now I have nothing special in there!

There is this tooth brush holder, which has 5 brushes in it! All different colors and all of them belong to me :D you see a color per day!! And yes we all know that weekend is off, anyway! :) [Just kidding okay, I brush min twice a day!! ;-)] and have some room freshener, few earrings scattered around, a old bath mat, rug etc! Gosh! I tried replacing them with new ones recently, some how could not convince myself to buy those very expensive floor mats and rugs! They are so beautiful and elegant and nice! But equally expensive! Neither did I could convince myself to compromise! So left the battle between mind and heart to figure out in due course of time! [God, they cost me more than those beautiful dresses at Macys and Jjills! :(] I know it’s all just a matter of time and they are making their way to my bathroom pretty soon :)

Other things I wanted to get were those beautiful soap boxes, sprays and those candles and candle stands! They made them so sweet and elegant that I can’t stop looking at them and making a note in mind to match with the color of my bathroom floor, mat, hand towel etc. Poor thing, with all these in place, still my shower tab/base itself is not good :( its all old stuff, looks like we moved in hurry before they could complete their full fledged remodeling. Went and complained about it to the rental office, hope they fix it soon and make my dream bathroom a reality :)

What a wonderful world...

I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

I see skies of blue and clouds of white
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shaking hands saying how do you do
They're really saying I love you.

I hear babies crying, I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll never know
And I think to myself what a wonderful world
Yes I think to myself what a wonderful world.

[PS: A song from movie "Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na" has this kinda Jazz flavored music... has anybody felt the same?

Check this awesome video for above lyrics and the singer... what a wonderful world!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vnRqYMTpXHc ]

You know!!

Today, just came back home after a tiring day at work... by then wow!! what i see!! my roomie had made me delicious tea and what else i can ask for after a long day at work? [I know there are few already feeling J :D] I started having it and enjoying every sip of it. Suddenly you know what? I heard some thing which triggered me to write the following J

Have you ever observed people talking? noticed their unique words which they keep repeating? With every sentence they say, they start or end with that particular word!! I have this weird thing of observation and that too if a person has some things unique like that, guess what? I will be the first person to catch it and become conscious about it!

There was one colleague (?!) in my previous company who would start or end every sentence spoken with "You Know"! Once I was debugging some serious issue, my manager was also with me and this colleague came to discuss the same issue and wanted to help us out with his ideas. He was talking to my manager in particular and I was just listening to both discussing and once in a while when required was answering to their questions. As they were discussing you know? This word caught my attention, and I started wondering to see how many times he was using "you know" you know? My mind stopped listening to their conversation, instead kicked off a counter, waiting to catch the word " you know" and it kept on incrementing... you know? Ufff!!! Within that 3-5 mins conversation you know, how many "you knows were there? You know!! More than 30!!! After a while, my mind was screaming "Stop it" and otherwise I would burst!! I thanked God, when he stopped and left the place, I was relieved, you know!!

There is my new colleague, you know? Actually he starts or ends every line with this word "actually" actually all the times! "Actually, I wanted to do that, but some thing came in between, could not do it... actually..." oooooo!!! start and even end with "actually" :)
In one of weekly meetings, my counter had started incrementing without my knowledge and constantly noticing this "actually", but forcibly I reset and shut it down. But every time I talk to him actually I can not help but wonder how many times he says that J

Let me tell about few of my friends :D!! Hope after reading this post, they won't come and kill me!
This one friend, whenever want to describe some thing amazing, some thing more than normal, there is a word ready called "Super"!!! Like “I'm super happy”, “super hungry”, It's super koool isn't it? What ya say :) This is a patented word from this friend!!

There is one more friend, who would say "Teek hai" for every sentance spoken! "I will come and make tea, teek hai" :)

And there are few other friends, who would just talk in terms of "hmms" like one would say "hmm" other one would reply "hmm hmm" !! hmmmmmmm J

I can't forget this friend of mine, who would always scold "donkeys, monkeys, chaplus and aplus” like "tu gahda hai" arrey! Common why are you scolding those bechare donkeys yaar, common spare them!! I don't know about those chaplus and aplus!! Poor guys whoever they may be!

Last but not least, one other buddy would come and say "I want to get married soon" and say " wish my manger is 10 years younger and unmarried" " i would happily have gotten married !!! " [Though this manager wants or does not want :P you know!! ] I listen and still listening and keep smiling...